I wish things could turn out how everyone wants them to. Life would be so much easier that way.

But that never happens, does it?

Which is F**KING LAME.

Anyway, it was the first day back at school today. We got our timetables and the usual Helen Brown 'chat'. Even though the assemblies are only around half an hour long. They drag man. I wouldn't mind so much, but she repeats herself. A lot.

Also as i usually do, i check if anyones changed, physically. Like haircuts etc.

It was nice to see everyone again. I felt different somehow, like older or something. I don't know, that sounds stupid because of course i'm older. Ha.

Lastly, I actually like my new english teacher, which shocked me slightly. I felt like i learnt more in that lesson than i had done in the last year or so.

HOW REFRESHING.

He doesn't want the company.

...

You know when...

I having one of those phases. You know, when nothings going right.

I feel like everyone hates me and is ignoring me when they're probably not. Its very odd, but i'm sure it'll pass.

Yeah thats pretty much it today.

Oh and i bought some plastic spiders for a phobia shoot i'm planning. I'm also thinking about getting tumblr?

Well i'm back from Exmoor. I had fun. But i missed Leicester rather too much. My dad made me walk alot. And i'm not the best walker in the world, therefore my legs are bruised all over and i cannot walk up or down stairs without difficulty.

I haven't picked up my AS level results yet. My mum has them and she hasn't opened them. I'm dreading it. Not because of my grades. Because to be honest i couldn't care less if i got crap ones. Its more the disappointment on my parents faces that gets me down. Like when i got a U a while back. Literally the worst day ever xD

I'm a screwed up child.

Anyway, whilst i had free time on holiday, and nobody was contacting me, i edited a few pictures that i have taken. I've put words on them. Very sad, pathetic quotes about a load of rubbish. But i don't know, i was probably hormonal at the time. Please excuse my lack of concentration and the excessive rubbishness coming from my mouth. But i NEED sleep. I'll be better in the morning and will probably delete this blog. paha.

OK. I'm also a pathetic excuse for a girl, and i severely apologise. I should just reincarnate (not sure if thats how you spell it) into a centipede or something.

You can LOL. I won't be offended :D

Oh and you have to click on the pictures one by one to see them in full. Not that you'd want to anywho xD

#3

I'm in a loving mood.

#2

'For what its worth, I think you're amazing'

...

You're exactly what I need

But everything I want.

If you're not around,

My heart beats that tiny bit slower.

I am in a field, with only a blanket of flowers

and you're not here with me.

The lonliness swallows me up,

and my breath becomes too short.

I lay on the ground and look up,

at the pristine, clear sky.

But I feel nothing, no emotion.

Without you the world is numb to me.

And yet the earth still turns but I remain frozen.

Alone.

HA. Just a random thing I wrote a few months ago. Its crap. But was appropriate at the time.